12w6d

So my sickness in general has been much better starting 2 days ago. I don't have an upset stomach constantly anymore and when I feel nauseous, it's mild, and can be tackled immediately with food. Although, I had a huge preggo brain moment today. I was leaving the house and trying to set the alarm code, and COMPLETELY forgot what the sequence was - even though I type it in daily - and had no excuse... my hubby was like "that's unbelievable!"

Quite interesting.

Also, I can really feel my uterus now. It's very round and very bulgy in my pelvis area, and maybe about an inch above my lady patch. I also have somewhat of a real bump, whoo! During the day a lot of the bump is food and gas, but it's there at night and in the morning too, on an empty stomach. What a great yet strange feeling at the same time. It feels like someone inserted a whoppie cushion in your lower belly and is slowly inflating it. I guess I really notice it because I'm such a slender person and now my belly is being stretched like it's never been before.

Here's a new picture at 12w6d:

11 weeks 5 days

Heart palpitations are more frequent in the past few days. Worse actually, because coupled with seasonal allergy, I'm getting congested and will start to cough involuntarily. Last night I woke up in the middle of the night unable to breathe because my toncils were swollen and I kept swallowing my uvula (the punching bag looking thing) in my dreams because I was struggling to breathe.

Last couple of days I also had another "scare" as my symptoms appear to be disappearing. Breasts were less tender and seemed less swollen, no morning sickness, although felt a little uncomfortable from gas, and I could no longer feel a firm area around my pubic bone that I believed to be my traveling uterus. Even though I am fully aware that around this time in the pregnancy is when the placenta takes over all hormonal production and therefore, I will start to get relief from the symptoms... you still can never be sure if it's the good reason or the bad reason.

But what are the chances now for me to lose the baby? Good solid heartbeat from 6, 8, then 10 weeks, even saw it wiggle, and it grew right on target, etc. If it doesn't work out, it would have to be because of my body killing it. *sigh* You just never know.

I didn't freak out though this time because - like I told a fellow forum member on babyandbump, symptoms do come and go - observe the progress for a week before committing an emotional response. Well, I did, and today I had nausea again in the afternoon lasting all the way until dinner time. My breasts feel fine as well... tender and swollen.

I hope you're doing well in there little baby. Mommy wants to see you in 7 months... very much.


One small thing I wanted to note: at 4pm today I had a gush of discharge that was dirty yellow in color, almost tan. That freaked me out. Wasn't sure if it was a little brown blood mixed with discharge. So I kept an eye on it for the rest of the day... and a nose too. I have a suspicion that it may be a minor infection. I can never tell. But at least I could conclude by the end of the day that it was not brown blood.

11 weeks 2 days

My "morning" sickness has taken a turn for the worst. Last night I rolled around in bed with stomach pain, much like an upset stomach, until I had to get up to crouch over the sink and started heaving for the first time ever. Nothing came out, but I did feel a little better after some burps. So, I went back to bed. Several minutes later, the nausea came back and I kind of rolled around until I found a good position where I could ignore the nausea. I know I wouldn't have been able to vomit. I've not barfed once before in this entire pregnancy.

This morning, I woke up feeling fine, until I ate breakfast. I just had bran cereal with raisins, but it’s very unsettling in my stomach and the nausea returned until I had lunch. Couple of hours after lunch, the nausea came back! Nothing helps. Or maybe I'm just supposed to eat all day, every hour? I have no appetite though. Things I enjoyed eating last week are gross this week... like string cheese, yogurt, and toast.

The only thing I noticed is my bloating is going away. Well, just in size, because in actuality, my bloating is probably what's causing all this nausea, i.e. all that gas in my tummy.

Heart palpitations:
I've been having these since Thursday of last week. This morning though, they were so frequent and so noticable that every time my heart skipped a beat or beated an extra beat, I coughed. It was like a weird reflex... since it feels like when you're sick and your chest is congested. I think they were more frequent this morning because my heartrate sped up to 100 beats per minute. Later in the afternoon, it returned to 88bpm. Right now I'm relatively relaxed I guess, beating at 84bpm. You can find your heartrate by counting your pulse (neck or wrist) for 15 seconds, then multiplying that number by 4.

I've read palpitations are quite common in pregnancies because of the increase blood flow and thus your heart working overtime... but sometimes they could mean other more serious conditions that need medical treatment. If I become more worried about them in the next few days, I'll definitely consult my OB and maybe ask for some testing (thyroid and iron).

11 weeks

Woke up with a flat belly this morning - slept too long - was completely emptied, poor starving baby. As soon as I ate breakfast, I had a stomachache, then had to go to the bathroom. My bathroom habits have been the opposite of what normal pregnant peers go through... not once have I had constipation, quite the contrary really. One other symptom I wanted to note as it's quite obvious to me now, my nipples have gotten darker! And while they are normally inverted, they are now frequently extroverted. Oh, also my nails grow like weeds. I keep them very short because they are normally quite brittle and will bend backwards (OUCH) by accident. I just cut them several days ago and now I notice I have to cut them again.

In a textbook scenario, my "morning" sickness should start to get better starting this week or the next. I'm still getting sick at least once or twice a day. By sick I mean, some degree of loss of appetite, getting really hungry and eating a big meal that looked great before but completely regretting eating it 10 mins later because it leaves a horrible taste in my mouth and a real unsettling feeling in my tummy, getting a stomachache (I should call them gasmachaches because they're gas induced) while laying down trying to sleep or during sleep in the middle of the night, and I am still fatigued once in a while. Most common are those gasmachaches and loss of appetite, oh and the out of nowhere really hungry feeling that you can't satiate (like I'm having right now).

I'm soooo close to second trimester I can taste it... please please please please please let everything be fine. I want to have this child so bad. My husband and I are dying to meet him/her. PLEASE!

Next scan tomorrow: 10 weeks 3 days

Just a tad bit nervous about the scan tomorrow because - you just never know and I absolutely hate surprises. I still feel "off" like not quite sick, but uncomfortable in my belly, and there's definitely some loss of appetite. And my boobs are really sore today... not sure if it's because I was in a push-up bra all day. I'm about ready to call it a day though, it's 9:43pm. Not sure if it's because I'm used to it by now, or perhaps my bloating has begun to subside? I don't constantly feel like an air balloon anymore.

Hoping for good news.

More reflections 10 weeks

I had a relatively normal day yesterday, which is surprising since I've never felt worst the night before that. I was a bit exhausted around 4-5pm so laid around watching TV feeling a little moody. But there was no sickness. I can see now that from past patterns that my "morning" sickness is worst in the evening... probably because I'm tired and need a nap, but not only do I not get one, but this is the time when I return home from work and typically need to use energy to find food for humans and feed/play/take care of the dog and 1 new puppy. I would try to take naps, but I always fall into deep sleep instead and ruin the rest of my night cuz I get so groggy. At least now I have a pattern. Will need to find out how to make it better.

9 weeks 6 days

Morning sickness symptoms:
Beginning on 9 weeks 1 days, I had this nagging but minor nausea all day, coupled with constant hunger. I'll eat, it'll go away for a little while, then come back. It lasted 3 days. Then yesterday... it went away in the morning, then came back times 3 in the evening. I was supposed to meet my hubby and 2 friends at a restaurant at 7:00pm. At 6, I started losing my appetite. 6:30, nausea kicked in, this time, it was bad enough that I put my head over the sink, thinking maybe something might come out. None. So I canceled the dinner and went to bed at 7:00pm. 7:30pm my stomach was brewing up a storm... like literally. Wind kept passing out of me, it was like an upset stomach again.


Next scans:
On Tuesday (10 weeks 3 days), I'm having my next regular OB scan that I insisted on scheduling because I'm a worried wart. In a way I'm a bit reassured because of all my symptoms so far this week, and my boobs are still growing, but I need to see that heartbeat. Especially since the first miscarriage was at 10 weeks. Although I had zero morning sickness last time.

Two weeks after that at 12 weeks 4 days, I have a first trimester screening where they will check for signs of chromosomal abnormalities. If all goes well, I think this is the point where we tell family. Praying all goes well!!

8 weeks 5 days

Bloating is insane!! My hubby touched my belly and commented "it feels like if I stuck a needle in your tummy it will blow up"... yup! it's true, I feel like I'm going to explode anyways without the needle!

Well today, I felt completely normal. Not a minute of stomach problems or nausea, and of course my boobs are a little less sore (although still growing)... I even ate a lot of junk food like spicy potatoe chips... ok the only symptom I had, I think, was being constantly hungry (and sore boobs.. oh an extreme bloating).

But I can't help myself and got another scan scheduled at 9 weeks 3 days. Although I think I will postpone it until 10weeks 2 days so it would have been another 2 weeks + of growth. After this milestone, I think I can truly feel comfortable. That would make this the farthest pregnancy yet.

icky 8 week 3 days

Haven't posted in a while, because not much as happened. But, today I decided to finally cook for my hubby - spaghetti w/polish sausage. I knew I wasn't going to have any because tomato sauce just grosses me out right now. But I didn't know cooking the pasta was going to make me lose my appetite too. Ew. I guess it really reminded me of my recent food poisoning episode which was a result of eating weird chicken spaghetti with hot pepper. *BARF*

So, I took a little nap until my upset stomach went away. Then ate some Asian-ish food that mainly consists of rice, oh that is not settling well with me right now. Better go chew a piece of gum and get that taste out of my mouth.

And I've napped at around 6 or 8 each night this week. Just all of a sudden get the wind knocked out of me and I fall sleep for about 2 hours.

One more thing:
Found out today the 3 antibodies (blood clotting) test I did on February 5 turned out normal.

7 weeks 6 days

I think it's a trend. I feel horrible on weekends when I'm home the entire day. Then when I work, I don't feel as sick. Right now, nothing. Of course, it's my first day off from work. So if this really is a trend, then I'll start feeling terrible tonight, and will continue until Monday night.

I'm mentally preparing for the 8 week scan in a few hours. Praying everything is ok. My boobs are larger than ever and I'm peeing very frequently.

HCG on Wednesday= 73,000 approx. (took 5.9 days to double)

Sick

I feel just gross. I haven't made a decent meal in about 2 weeks because nothing I make sounds good. So I've been having snack types of food like Edamame, toast, crackers, cereal... and bland Chinese wonton soup. Right now, my stomach is upset. I get a brief moment before breakfast in the morning when I feel fine, then after I eat, my stomach gets upset until lunch, feels better for a little while, then is upset all the way until I get in bed. I noticed, driving makes it worst - motion sickness? After some big burps or winds, I get some relief. Gingerale doesn't help, neither does saltine crackers. I think those are for regular pregnant folks with nausea. I have upset stomach! Help!

It comes, it goes...

It came. I still can't figure out if this is morning sickness, because typically, all I hear from pregnant peers is "I feel nauseous; dry heave; or actual vomit".... I don't feel any of those, except sometimes a tiny bit nauseous. Mostly what I have is digestion discomfort. My stomach felt upset all day today and most of last night. Like something wants to come back up (heartburn/indigestion?). And I have really loose stool (opposite of what typical pregnant women get: constipation).

Is this morning sickness? Or did I eat something wrong?

Oh it feels bad. I HATE upset stomachs. If you go back a couple of pages, you'll see that I DID have a real upset stomach/food poisoning episode not too long ago that lasted 4 days. I threw up 6 times. It's the worst!

I guess I just naturally have a grade D digestive system. Not surprising, my dad (56) was just diagnosed with acid reflux last year. His stomach is in pain constantly.

I haven't had much morning sickness since the last post. Sometimes my stomach feels a tiny bit upset, but not to that degree before. And then this morning my boobs aren't as tender either. *sigh*.

At least some good news. HCG at 6w3d = 28,664. A little bit more than double in 5 days. I guess at this range, it often takes more than 4 days.

Getting another one done next Monday - 6 days after.
Then next Friday is my 8week scan.

6 weeks 2 days: I think I have morning sickness

My last two pregnancies, I never ever once felt sick or queasy. This morning at around 10am, I can firmly say I got queasy. The entire morning I had a really upset stomach.. got up feeling so. Kept burping really big burps from really deep inside my stomach... and just sort of got progressively worse. After lunch though, it went away and now I'm totally fine, just a bit gasey.

They're baack...

pain to the slightest poke!

Cruel but reassuring. Please don't leave anymore, pain in my boobs.

My little boobs are so small. They're still tender, but not as paintful as past few days.
I got up this morning and stuck around in bed just thinking what I was going to have for breakfast... peanut butter on bagel, scrambled eggs with cheddar, and a banana yogurt smoothie. When it comes to actually putting the food in my mouth, I only have appetite for the smoothie. I ate the eggs, but slowly. The bagel is two bites gone but the rest are still on my plate.

5 weeks 5 days

Tomorrow is my 6 week scan (close to). I haven't checked my HCG in 3 days, but hopefully it has doubled, which will make it around 12,000. That should be enough to see a heartbeat. So that is what we're praying to see at the ultrasound. I am extremely nervous and emotionally void at the same time.

Today's symptoms include: peeing every hour or two, sore bruised feeling boobs but much more deflated than last week, and a lot of gas after eating sugary or greasy things.

More worries

...always worried. What did I tell ya.

I'm still charting my temperature. It's been continually dropping since Saturday (for 4 consecutive days now)... I am still not spotting so either this is within normal progesterone fluctuations, or I'm going to get a surprise miscarriage before the end of the week. Progesterone is what makes your body temperature elevated after ovulation and during pregnancy. Temperature drops indicates mensturation. I'm kind of scared to be at work, so I'm going to keep a close eye on the temps. Really really praying that it will go back up tomorrow.

My boobs are much more deflated but they hurt real bad. Like they're bruised. So I'm a bit confused. Please please please go back up tomorrow.






More with the fertility doctor
Also, my fertility doctor/specialist will NOT clarify my endometrial biopsy over the phone and insists that I go in and see him again, especially in light of my pregnancy. He wants me to redo the blood tests that were messed up before, as they were for to check for clotting... so I will. But he is really pushing my buttons. Everytime I go in to see him hoping for indepth information that caters to me individually, he recites a chapter in a textbook, and I wish he'd never wasted my time. I still want to clobber him. Anyways, I have an appointment next Friday with him.

DPO17 : 4weeks 1 day

I didn't record this yesterday because I didn't want to obsess over every little detail, but now I'm going to jot it down to remind myself the next time I freak out.

Yesterday was the first day of the week that I didn't have to wear a bra (because I was home all day)... so I didn't notice my boobs being really sore. During the evening, I started feeling them around and they felt a little smaller - the fullness deflated. Then my husband came over to cop a feel and told me the same thing (without me vocalizing to begin with)... so we were both like "uh oh".

So anyways, friends were coming over, so I unwillingly put a bra on. By midnight, they didn't really hurt, but when I felt them again, they were full again.

This morning, they still aren't as painful as the few days in the 3rd week, but I believe they're the fullest yet.