I just realized after my follow-up appointment with the specialist in mid-Jan to get the results, that's it. I can't see him anymore, because my insurance only approved for that many visits. If they don't find anything, then I'm SOL and have to go on trying without further testing because I don't think insurance will approve for further visits since I've "only" had two miscarriages and they are not classified as "recurrent" according to my OBGYN.

Hell. THEY BETTER FIND SOMETHING!

Or better yet, THERE BETTER BE NOTHING WRONG WITH ME AND THE THIRD PREGNANCY BETTER BE THE ONE!

It's so hard not knowing why.