Double takes and whispers

More people at work are starting to notice my belly. I can tell. They're doing sly glances down "there" when we talk, and are making double takes... or they'll talk really soft... and stop talking and smile when I show up. They're funny. Wonder how long it'll take for them to be brave and ask. I don't mind this because I'm still not ready to be open about it. Soon though.... 2 more weeks until the dating/sizing/gender scan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

16w6d belly pics

17 weeks:

Sleep is torture. I wake up with the most excruciating back pain around 5am everyday. Body pillow doesn't do much. Also my boobs are soooo painful.

I'm going to hell for supporting cheap labor and sweatshops but I just bought maternity clothes at wal-mart.com.

Where else am I going to find work pants for $18???? That I will only wear for 6 months!

16w4d I know it's you baby!

I'm really feeling it tonight! Baby is pushing against my skin right around the area that I just found its heartbeat. It feels like if you were a balloon and there's something trapped inside of you pushing to find an exit. It's so stretchy, wiggly feeling. Go baby go! Work those muscles!

16w2d movements?

I think I'm feeling baby move... it's squirmy like a little fish swimming in the same spot. It's distinctively different from gas bubbles. It may be!

16 weeks

Exactly 16 weeks today! Not much of a change in last week's belly size. I think the bumpage might be moving up though. Not much going on except I've been getting a bit tired the past week - probably from the lack of sleep (pain in shoulder/back/hip/etc from having to sleep on the side).

I got a body pillow - it does help but I think in order to rid of the muscle aches I have to stretch them out first. (yoga time).

16 week OB appointment:

Yesterday was the 16 week OB appointment - nothing monumental as I expected. She found the heartbeat (146?) and gave me a order slip for a dating/sizing scan (which will include looking at the anatomy) but it won't be until my 20th week... a whole month from now! A little disappointed, but just as we expected.

I made the appointment for Friday May 15. But I want to know now!!!

Well, I find consulation in the fact that we're in the middle of purchasing a home, so the month will go by in a flash. We have so many appointments scheduled in the next week for inspections, and signing papers, etc. Then the next next weeks will be packing and moving.... so, May will come in no time!

Can't wait to see you again baby!

15 weeks

Another week! Noticed I haven't been posting almost everyday? No news means good news right?

Doppler's working great - baby's heartbeat is louder ever day. I can hear swooshing around then the heartbeat is gone, so the baby's moving a lot, hiding from the doppler.

I'm growing still - I think the top of my belly is rounding out.

Sometimes I think I feel the movement - like little muscle spasms or my insides rumbling, or two pops of popcorn, but I'm never for sure. Maybe it'll be more recognizable later this week.

Friday is the next OB appointment. I'm definitely going to ask about having the gender scan.... wonder if I have to wait 4 weeks or not :(

15 week belly shot:

14 week belly pics

I'm growing... growing... and growing...

14 weeks:

Good news!

We got our first trimester screening results (combines your age, nuchal fold measurements, and blood test to determine risk of chromosome defects) and we’re in the clear! The ratio was something like 1:5,000 for downs and 1:10,000 for trisomy 18. Making a baby is ever so trying… but at least this is another hurdle down and we’re getting a little closer. My next OBGYN appointment is at 16 weeks in 2 weeks time. Hoping for only good news from here on out.

Someone finally asked!

Omg, totally caught me off guard, but someone asked me if I was pregnant today! A nearby coworker whom I don’t work closely with, so it’s not like she sees me all the time.. but she stops me in front of the bathroom and goes “so, are you??” and makes a belly shape with her arms. I was trying really hard to play it off – like “why? Am I getting fat??”

I’m not ready for this to become public knowledge yet because… well I’m still scared of losing the child. But this totally caught me off guard because I was just looking at myself in the mirror thinking “oh good, my clothes hide my bloated tummy pretty well – no one suspects a thing”… Then the second I walk out the door, I get this ironic question!

Her reasoning was because I’m usually so skinny and lately I’ve been wearing baggier clothing. So I kept saying “well isn’t that what’s instyle?? The flowy tops with empire babydoll waist?” She’s like “noo….. but I won’t ask anymore” cuz I was making her uncomfortable since it was obvious I wasn’t going to admit yet.

But so now I’m mentally preparing myself for more questions as I get a little bigger and bigger each week – to the point where I can’t deny anymore.