Day before Thanksgiving and I can't believe I'm doing research on funeral homes and premmie urns.

We've had further appointments with the perinatologist and the prognosis has not changed. They pretty much said it's up to me, but the reality is that this baby, if it survives birth and the NICU, will be 99.9% special needs. Since my water broke during the crucial time for proper lung development, this baby's lungs most likely have never developed.

So, I regret to state that my induction date is 11/28/11. I will deliver my baby boy at 22 weeks. I don't know what else to say but I'm incredibly scared, besides other intense emotions, and I don't know how to handle it all at this point.